Finding Your Path To Self-Realization

Finding your path to self realization is easier than you think.

At the age of 23 I realize that I have spent the past 8 years trying to figure out who I was and what was the purpose of God putting me on earth during this time period. I know anyone reading this would say that I am too young to talk about this topic. I would just like to point out that most people I know have always said to me that I am 23 going on 60. Many folks stumble down this path of realization without even knowing that they are headed down that way

What does it take to get someone on the path to realization?

I was always amazed at the fact that while my friends were out partying I was at home reading books that would help to find my way to the real me. The authors were educated and I knew if they were happy and successful my life could mirror theirs. A fantasy land with unicorns and rainbows is what drove me to believe everything I was reading. It was more of an escape for myself away from reality. I thought that was what the whole purpose of awakening was about. When I didn't achieve the feeling of satisfaction I felt as if it was going to take more to burst me out of the bubble that sent me to the clouds. I had no idea that that I would feel the burst in such a traumatic way.

I had three major life threatening car accidentsby the age of 19. Unfortunately during the last car accident I watched someone lose their life right before my eyes. That was the most terrified I had ever been in my life. I remember standing on the grass without a single scratch on my body. This was the third car accident that almost killed me within three years. It haunted me every night because the person who passed away was only 17 years old. I did not want to over analyze and delve too much into spiritual matters because at that time I questioned God on why this had to be me and my friend that night. My life changed forever after that wreck and I took it as a lesson learned for my soul. It sounds so cliche, but what does not kill a person makes them so much stronger.

I could not do anything about what had happened that night nor could blaming someone I did not know bring me peace. It was very difficult at night to sleep. The images replaying in my mind made it worse. I thought of how my life was going at the time and if I kept that lifestyle up where it would lead me to. I'm very fit and in shape today. Back then I did not have the motivation to follow through on projects and college was a joke to me. I never ruled God out of my life, but I found it harder to make the time to talk. Growing up with my parents exposing me to so many religions I did not know what to believe. God was the only person I could turn to. I witnessed so many miracles and I regret not appreciating all the small blessings around me at the time.

I prayed as hard as I could because I knew God planned everything for a reason. Deep inside my heart I knew that I was wonderful. As hard as it was for me to accept what had happened that night I knew it had to be a lesson for my soul. The big question was what am I going to gain from this? Before the accident I had turned to everyone for answers but God. Change was coming because I felt it inside of me. One of my favorite passages from the Bible is Mathew 5:16. I had held my own light in for so long that I had forgotten that I had something to contribute to this world. Maybe that popped into my head for a reason so I could cope with why I was still alive.

It took me one week after that happened to leave a job that treated me horribly. I found the courage to finally open the business I had always wanted to start. Yes, I was still 19 at the time but I wanted to live life to the fullest. I had faith in God that he would watch over the measly amount my boyfriend and I had used to open the business at the time. It worked well enough for me until I was finally able to get back into college and pursue my dream of being able to help others.

You do not have to experience this type of pain to find your path to realization.

Regardless of how horrible you feel your life is take the time to appreciate the people and situations in you life that make you smile. You might see that they were placed in your life to help guide you there. Every person and situation teaches you something.

Make changes in your life to be honest with yourself and true feelings. Sometimes pain from a situation long ago pops in from time to time. Get a journal and write! Write down what happened to you throughout the day every night before you go to bed in a journal. When you have a bad day, flip back to that good day and savor the feelings.

You were meant to show off that special light inside of yourself. Never measure your worth to someone else.

I always believe that everything is already perfect. The road to realization can be a dark one if you forget to use the light within to illuminate the way.